butterflies.

from the top of my head to the tip of my toes.

bloody sunday

the weekend is finally over and back to work i go.
less than two weeks til our wonderful journey to the twin cities!
i have never been so excited in my whole life to get out of this city
warped tour, shopping, boys in bands. yo.
hopefully it will stop raining on my days off so i can actually get a tan going on here!

anyways had a hilarious night with stacie. first cruise night of the summer and probably by far the best. nothing beats eiffel 65, lou bega and the darkness all in one night.
time for bed back to the fluorescent box of old home bright and early.

say the word

so really happy i was stuck at work and didn't go camping last night.
my brilliant friends forgot to put the top on their tent and it poured of course.
GOOD ONE
supposed to be heading out there tonight after work hopefully if it snot too big of a mess out there.
i really need to get going on this whole tan thing i am still white as a ghost!
either way i'm making my way to the beach tomorrow to soak up those rays
i have monday and tuesday off thank god because i am working wed-sun
it's going to be a hectic week/weekend so hear i go!

night owls

caught up in those endless thoughts again
restless and sleepless

maybe one day..
hoping the words will roll off my tongue
satisfaction is NOT common these days

feel the earth quake

summer has officially started.
countdown to warped tour is in full force.
school is closer and closer each day.

things are moving along quite nicely these days for a change.
the weather hasn't been so great but hopefully the sun will come out to visit more
now that its been in hiding for the past month or so.
the bugs are SO terrible, i couldn't be stress so anymore.
the city really needs to jump on fogging this place
or were all going to be a bunch of bumpy, itchy, complaining beasts.

anyways, for some reason i never though finding a vehicle would be this difficult!
it's been a couple months and so far nothing close to suitable, sigh.
keeping up the search is the only way i'm going to find anything though.
be persistent.

really looking forward to having a saturday off!
i am for sure going to take advantage of that & sleeping in/being hungover/ soaking up the rays by dani's pool.

simply sunday

i really need to get on the blogging but now that i have been working and the weather has been so nice it's almost impossible.
yesterday we had the most rain ive even see in my life, the roads were like lake,it was terrifying.
skate for cancer after party was probably the cherry on top of another weird and eventful weekend.
waking up to your smile makes my whole body tingle.
i love the pace of everything around me right now but i REALLY need to get on exercising.

feel your bones break

sunday, feels like another boring monday to me.
working all weekend every weekend is going to be the death of me.
especially going to bed at four thirty and having to be up at eight thirty. my body hates me.
exhausted but i only have today and tomorrow left. monday is time and a half so i'm not complaining.
i woke up to the sun shining and the smell after the rain, had a solid eight hours or more of sleep. good start to the day.

i'm trying to keep a positive mind but every day its hard not to think of how it would be different if you stepped and became the father that you should be. it's been probably almost three or four months now and you haven't budged. i will not falter and apologize for the mistakes you made.

anyways, so over drama. including getting showered by beers by crazy jealous bi polar guys who act like they bleed once a month. people need to use their heads once in awhile they'd be surprised of what miracles could happen. i'm stoked on you and i hope this won't make things difficult because i would never wish for that.
my gut has a good feeling and no girl can ever get enough butterflies.

one step at a time, one foot in front of the other

anywhere but here

save the drama for your mama. what an eventful weekend so far and there is still one day left! thank god i work today because if i didn't i think i would lose it. friday night lead to too many shots, friends in the hospital and a total of one hour of sleep. saturday was a beautiful day but due to my lack of sleep i spent most of it in bed.
some people need to grow up because they are going to lose everyone around them if they think that they don't owe anyone anything. stop running your mouth its only going to bite you in the ass in the end. karma is a bitch.
no such luck on a car yet, unfortunately. but the search isnt over yet. i would love to have one in time for summer but its all in good time.
ps. i have such a good feeling about you, i can't wait for things to unfold.

forget everything

i hate the way the mind works.
i hate remembering.
i hate believing.
i hate family.
i hate having faith.
all because of you.
here's to letting go of what i thought would be.

toonie tuesday

the honest truth.

the end

hangover free. saturday, major sleepy head. these lates nights are getting to me, hello zombielife.
junior chickens and chips for breakfast. finally the sun is out and shining. bring on the heat.
it's supposed to be warming up by the end of this week, fingers are crossed.
anyways its nap time, need to recharge for wispy's birthday tonight.
















wherever you go, go with all your heart.

center of attention

lack of money bites. lack of shifts lately is killing me.
i have so many things on my wish list to knock off.
it's almost summer and i need to add a splash of colour to my wardrobe, asap.
































































































anyways on another note it's friday finally. i have the worst possible shift today, 8-12.
not stoked. but after everything will be all good, full of smiles & strikes.
let's re-cap on the week..
+ staying up til seven in your bed
+ falling asleep with smiles on our faces
- waking up at eight and going home because captain kicked my ass
+ coming back over to breakfast and adtr
+ pizza and ranch with heebz, an over due hang out for us
+ looking forward to getting off work tonight to see you

next week work is picking up and i couldn't be more thrilled. bored and broke = brutal.
it's still pretty cold outside the sun needs to come out and stay.

i'm so heavy

aaaaaaaand a good afternoon, for sure should have a fast forward button right now. hello nine o'clock? somewhere round there. anyways today is katty's big 18. were all very thrilled for another interesting night spent at dylan's. never fails. i'm still in my pj's i should kick my ass into gear and get thisssssssss shit on the road. holla.

+ wicked WILD wednesdays
+ REVENGE OF THE CAPTAIN
+ late nights, good friends, clumsy times
+ slumber partyyyy mmmm

save your heart

tuesday! tomorrow is wednesday!
katty's birthday, little girl is finally all grown up like the rest of us.
dylans for dollar draft couldnt be anymore fitting.
i had the strangest breakfast today.. coffee, trix cereal jalapeno & dill chips with onion dip.
hittin all the food groups there.
short shiift today should go by fast, i'm stoked for the rest of the week and too see more of your cute face.

sleepy sunday

first all nighter since i was at least 14.
honestly don't know how i am alive right now.
today is going to consist of sleep, tea, pjs, smiles, junk food and movies.
thank god for days like these.

slow and low

let it flowwwwwww.
monday means yoga which means tomorow is tuesday.
i only have two shifts this week which is pretty good because i can take a break and hang out. down side is less cash flow towards car/tattoo etc.
lyndsay has been basically living at my house and all we do it eat and make fun of people. we're going straight to hell.

i had one of the best caesars of my life last week at dylans and it just reminds me so much of summer.
definitely going to be my drink of choice all summer long. oh babyyyyyyy.
bring on the tabasco sauce.

the way the world turns

last night was by far the best wednesday. ever.
i mean i for sure feel it today.
note to self: a sore neck after a day to remember is a sign you had a good time.

+ running into people who you haven't seen in awhile
+ babes everywhere
+ handing out cd's after the concert
+ dylan's for dollar draft to top it off
+ sleeping in and not working til six

hope where did you go

It's been a long week and I need to get a few things off my chest.

1. You have alot of issues with putting yourself before everyone else. You may not realize it either.
If you don't get what you want you have to let the whole world know, we all know what its like.
You can't always get what you want. You already have so much in front of your face
Sometimes I wish you'd learn to appreciate what you have instead of always thinking about what you don't have.
Being negative 24/7 isn't going to get anyone very far, treat others the way you want to be treated.
I wish you could open you're eyes, All i need is for you to be a friend.
& I know you have it in you.
I'm glad we have come so close but sometimes I don't feel like i'm an important person in your life.
I can only hope that things will get better.

2. Things should still be the same, you should still act the same.
No effort into even keeping it that way is just making it worse.
You're not always right and you need to realize that its not just you who is
having a hard time with life.
It is a two way street so don't say otherwise. I've only been a friend to you.
I want things to go back to normal and let the good times roll.

3.You wrote me off like an old car, another cheque from the book, an old pair of socks.
Each day cuts deeper into my past and wishing i could change it all around.
Sometimes i wish i could write you off but i'd only be at your level.
You're never going to realize how much of my life you have missed out on.
The sad thing is you always said you care. You're words don't mean a thing.
Money isn't everything and that's not what i want from you in the end.
You never made anything easy for me.
It hurts to know you will never truly be proud of my accomplishments or existence.

4. Here's to the headache every single day.
Locking everything up inside is only making matter worse.
I'm tired of fighting for things that lead to nothing.
Sick of the way people treat each other. What is love anyways.
Someone show me how it feels to be alive inside.
All i've known is constant hate and frustration. It's time to be set free.
Is that too much too ask?

5. I can't thank you enough for your love and support.
I don't know where i'd be standing without you.
We've grown closer together these past few years and i couldn't be more happy about it.
When you go i'll be sure to miss you and never forget all the things you showed me.
You are so strong, and I am so proud of you. Together we make a good team.
A million thank yous for the freedom and the ground rules you have given me.
I appreciate all the conversations, favours and gifts from you and i know they have come from the heart.
You taught me to give second chances and to let yourself come first once in awhile.
I know i don't say it enough but i do love you.
If i fell to pieces you'd heal the pain i feel.

6. I want to block out all the voices surrounding us and whispering of things that are hurtful and meaningless.
I am glad we are where we are in this point in time.
Despite the ups and downs i know you will always have a shoulder for me to cry on and have open ears and eyes trying your best to understand.
As the days go on i watch you grow up and come out of your shell.
Lately everything has become so much better and has made me forget all the bad and focus on the good.
Things are really hard for you now but they will soon get better for you i promise.
This is all just the beginning for us.

7. Summer is just around the corner and i couldn't be more excited.
I can't wait for all the laughs, pictures, late nights and rockstar vodkas we will have.
It will be like last summer x a million.
I never would have thought we'd be where we are today.
But most days i don't really know what i'd do without you as such a close friend to me.
You are wise beyond your years and always are willing to lend me or anyone a helping hand.
I know you wouldn't want me to get all cheesy so i just want to say thank you.
Thank you for being genuine, caring and most importantly for being you.
Summer of 2010 here we come.

8. I think of you from time to time. Lately it's been more than usual.
I don't know how to describe how i feel about you anymore.
There's something inside of me that wants to believe that it could have happened.
Maybe it's just because i have faith in everyone and i thought that you could have changed.
I wonder where you are now and if you think about it too.

That's all for now.
I'm going to keep dreaming.

its still early

Sometimes you have to run away, just to see who runs after you.

throw it back

How can you say your life is empty
So late in the day
Why would you stay another second
Now your sight got in the way
A combination
Of love and aggression
Another second lived
Don't paint the silence black now save me
Don't leave it a day
You got a right to stand or die so maybe
You take chances all the same
Pain comes in stages
If we dont make it
Nothing changes
Dont leave me to pick up on your questions
Not even a day
It's alright to finish up your sentence
You talk all the same
Pain comes in stages if we don't make it
Nothing changes
Now the violence sleeps inside
Abandoned feeling for just a piece of mind
It's the reason why your teething side frustrates me

sleepless nights

Ps. If you just opened your eyes you could see it all right in front of you.

4986934

Woke up this morning thinking it was friday, got an extra two hours of sleep because it wasn't :).
One more day until the weekend and i couldn't be more excited.

+ Lyndsay is here next wednesday
+ The sun is shining
- My mind is like a non stop over thinking machine

beside you

For some reason I can't get enough of this track lately.

from me to you

monday. work til five. tomorrow is a day off thank god
i can finally but my wondering mind to rest.

+ this upcoming weekend
+ dreams that makes no sense
+ waking up to a full pot of coffee

STOMACH KNOTS

Would someone care to classify
Our broken hearts and twisted minds
So I can find someone to rely on

BREAK IT

slackin on the blogs here. it's monday again already and its almost april.
the new year flew by fast i don't even know what to do with myself.
for the next few weeks i am loaded with shifts at max hours. helloooooo $$$$
i'm thinking of a tattoo consultation soon before summer. still have some research to do on a few places but i'm pretty set on my idea.
anyways, lyndsay will be here in about two weeks now! then come 4/20 and adtr.
couldnt be more stoked for spring time besides the nice weather and no BUGS.

LAST BIT

the whole school subject couldnt be driving me anymore crazy.
i just can't picture it in my head.
anyways, it was beautiful outside today which makes things better.
i can't wait til the sun is shining everyday and everyones in their summer clothes.

ps. you need to really realize how you treat people because no ones gonig to stick around if you keep this up

COMPLETE 360

things are going to change.
it's going to be an intense ride.
i am as ready as i could be.
inhale exhale.
here i go.

CONSISTANCY

SUMMER IS COMING

who doesnt like getting a new bathing suit?
i'm stuck between these two but i'm pretty sure i'm going to end up getting them both
leaning more towards leopard though.

I CAUGHT MYSELF

i should've never thought of you of you
you're pushing and pulling me down to you
but i don't know what i want

MAKE BELIEVE

EAR TO EAR

2:40
today was one of the worst mornings in a long long time.
never ever get hangovers especially after a wednesday, gotta love being draped over a toilet bowl all day long.
i'm going to nap til its dark outside so my batteries are recharged for later.
tomorrow is friday and so not stoked on working til midnight.
making money is essential these days particularly when you have a wish list the size of mine.
each day i realize more and more how things are changing so quickly, and most of it is for the better.
there are a few things i wouldn't mind clearing up though.
people need to realize that life is too short and to just "do" sometimes
no one wants to live a life in regret so what's there too lose.
now i'm just rambling because theres too much in my head.
i really hope things look up from here (fingers crossed) keeping my chin up

SHE'S A LADY

If I could gather up the nerve,
I'd put my feelings into words,
And if I weren't so young, or stupid, or restless,
I might be able to just soon forget this.
Just forget this.

THEME SONG

it's almost spring! everything is melting and it's wonderful.
i can't wait for april it's going to be a great start to the summer.

24 HR FOG

UNTITLED

he really shows he cares
with his lack of words
and countless stares

you think i'll always be fine
apologies don't last forever
hoping change will come with time

FED UP

WHO NEEDS ENEMIES
YOU'VE GOT FRIENDS

TEACHERS AND LAP DANCES

only something like this would happen in winnipeg

GOOD VIBES

+ not having to take a bus home
+ coming home to my favourite snack in the world
+ your sweater keeping me warm and how it smells like you
+ sleeping in tomorrow til whenever i want
+ tomorrow is friday, finally

+ my main bitches capped out <3

THROWING PUNCHES

How can I decide what's right?
When you're clouding up my mind
I can't win your losing fight all the time
...

hellooooooo there

this is what i do spare time:

disguised as a smile

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out a little more

JUMP OFF A CLIFF

thanks bg

BRITTANY:

http://www.urbandictionary.com/iphone/search?term=brittany

blank stare

throw all of your emotions together into one moment
imagine how your body must feel
my head is spinning

digging up bones

sometimes i wonder why i haven't just come right out and mentioned the thought of it or something along those lines.
there is nothing really to lose at this point, but if it came to that i don't think i would ever forget it or forgive myself.
i wonder what you think about it,
i'm sure that you do.



















on another note, i am so happy i finally got to catch up on sleep today
+ omelette & coffee for brunch
+ having to do nothing all day long


and still
thinking through these thoughts in my head

tired eyes

sunday best

I'm gonna stay eighteen forever
So we can stay like this forever
And we'll never miss a party
Cause we keep them going constantly
And we'll never have to listen
To anyone about anything
Cause it's all been done and it's all been said
We're the coolest kids and we take what we can get

afternoon chill

+ wii bowling & loud music at my place
+ three of us going to the bathroom together and the door handle falls off
+ wanting to not leave because of you
+ katty losing her phone and eric finding it in a snowbank near my house
+ heart to hearts at 4 a.m.
+ going to bed with a smile

upside

BRITTANY HAS A JOB.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KC is a babe

whiskey sour

gooooood morning winnipeg.
last night i had totally forgot i had plans with my dad so i had to blow someone off so that me and pops could hang [doesn't happen to often]
+ wing night at smitty's
- cheese toast was SO gross looking
turns out we ended up being there for about three hours with about six or seven drinks in my stomach
+ getting tipsy with dad on thirst day
+ dani getting off early so she came to chill and we all took shots
+ china white = baileys & creme de cocoa & cinnamon
kendra and michael picked me up around nine so kendra came inside to retrieve me and met my alcohol feeding father
+ kendra loves parents
this morning i'm not all 100% but that's okay with me nothing a hot shower can't fix
+ second interview at 10:00 a.m

can't stop

+ dollar draft night at dylans
+ demolishing a huge plate of fries with terra
+ singing blink 182 at the top of our lungs

+ encounter with the cops at 2.am in a school parking lot
+ terra sweet talking them leaving us with no trouble
+ forgetting about it in the morning


EAR CANDY CLICK HERE

get up and do something

+ sleeping in til one
+ going to mexico with mom to help build a school [not sure when yet]
+ being a night owl with your best friends

this is how it goes

+ rock band jam sesh all night
+the room becoming 1000 degrees because of it
+driving home with a smile

girls make boys cry

+ job interview in an hour @ shoppers
+ finally got a hold of a phone to use for the time being
+ the sun is shining
+ one more day closer to summer

weekenders

saturday night resulting in:
plus a few shattered windows with glass flying out on to everyone standing outside, you know

greener grass