hope where did you go

It's been a long week and I need to get a few things off my chest.

1. You have alot of issues with putting yourself before everyone else. You may not realize it either.
If you don't get what you want you have to let the whole world know, we all know what its like.
You can't always get what you want. You already have so much in front of your face
Sometimes I wish you'd learn to appreciate what you have instead of always thinking about what you don't have.
Being negative 24/7 isn't going to get anyone very far, treat others the way you want to be treated.
I wish you could open you're eyes, All i need is for you to be a friend.
& I know you have it in you.
I'm glad we have come so close but sometimes I don't feel like i'm an important person in your life.
I can only hope that things will get better.

2. Things should still be the same, you should still act the same.
No effort into even keeping it that way is just making it worse.
You're not always right and you need to realize that its not just you who is
having a hard time with life.
It is a two way street so don't say otherwise. I've only been a friend to you.
I want things to go back to normal and let the good times roll.

3.You wrote me off like an old car, another cheque from the book, an old pair of socks.
Each day cuts deeper into my past and wishing i could change it all around.
Sometimes i wish i could write you off but i'd only be at your level.
You're never going to realize how much of my life you have missed out on.
The sad thing is you always said you care. You're words don't mean a thing.
Money isn't everything and that's not what i want from you in the end.
You never made anything easy for me.
It hurts to know you will never truly be proud of my accomplishments or existence.

4. Here's to the headache every single day.
Locking everything up inside is only making matter worse.
I'm tired of fighting for things that lead to nothing.
Sick of the way people treat each other. What is love anyways.
Someone show me how it feels to be alive inside.
All i've known is constant hate and frustration. It's time to be set free.
Is that too much too ask?

5. I can't thank you enough for your love and support.
I don't know where i'd be standing without you.
We've grown closer together these past few years and i couldn't be more happy about it.
When you go i'll be sure to miss you and never forget all the things you showed me.
You are so strong, and I am so proud of you. Together we make a good team.
A million thank yous for the freedom and the ground rules you have given me.
I appreciate all the conversations, favours and gifts from you and i know they have come from the heart.
You taught me to give second chances and to let yourself come first once in awhile.
I know i don't say it enough but i do love you.
If i fell to pieces you'd heal the pain i feel.

6. I want to block out all the voices surrounding us and whispering of things that are hurtful and meaningless.
I am glad we are where we are in this point in time.
Despite the ups and downs i know you will always have a shoulder for me to cry on and have open ears and eyes trying your best to understand.
As the days go on i watch you grow up and come out of your shell.
Lately everything has become so much better and has made me forget all the bad and focus on the good.
Things are really hard for you now but they will soon get better for you i promise.
This is all just the beginning for us.

7. Summer is just around the corner and i couldn't be more excited.
I can't wait for all the laughs, pictures, late nights and rockstar vodkas we will have.
It will be like last summer x a million.
I never would have thought we'd be where we are today.
But most days i don't really know what i'd do without you as such a close friend to me.
You are wise beyond your years and always are willing to lend me or anyone a helping hand.
I know you wouldn't want me to get all cheesy so i just want to say thank you.
Thank you for being genuine, caring and most importantly for being you.
Summer of 2010 here we come.

8. I think of you from time to time. Lately it's been more than usual.
I don't know how to describe how i feel about you anymore.
There's something inside of me that wants to believe that it could have happened.
Maybe it's just because i have faith in everyone and i thought that you could have changed.
I wonder where you are now and if you think about it too.

That's all for now.
I'm going to keep dreaming.